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I asked him, "can I brag about you to somebody about you? Like a boss or anyone?" He said anyone in a blue shirt is management. I said like that guy? and pointed to a blue-shirted sprouts worker walking by. He said yes and then he called over Joe.

I didn't recognize myself first and validate myself first. I still thought it was selfish, I was still trying to find ways to please everyone else. If I could make them happy then I will feel satisfied.  If I get more styles of heart shaped glasses, If I make more posters, if I create more excitement, more impact, more, more, more. It's not enough, it's never...

If you listen close enough you will hear it, you will hear that pause from another woman. It's that classic pause of self-doubt, of not wanting to bother people, of not wanting to be a burden, of not wanting to take up space, of wanting to be “nice” to everyone except themselves. Listen close. Hear their pause.

She smiled this beautiful motherly smile and she gave me so much grace and said” We all have bad days hunny.”

I'm over like thinking...Uhm what did my chalk pens or I ever do to YOU? Anyway, she kept scanning and kind of chucking things into the bag and I was really getting mad. I mean do you have a problem with me? Do you have something you want to say? Do I need to get loud? Do I need to get a manager involved?...

You know what I realized much later though? This was never about her. As much as I wanted to blame her for her manipulative ways, this was always about me allowing someone to guilt me into doing something that I’m not sure that I wanted to do.